More people have perished in the Tsunami attack in the affected countries. Another earthquake measuring about 5 on the richter scale devastated Indonesia again early in the morning. Very sad...
Got my pay today from mum. $250 only but it's ok as long as it's money. Haha... Deposited the cash into my account and found out my POSB card cannot withdraw money.
Anyway, I went out with WL today. Met him at J8 with his mini friend Massie (nick-named "turtle". God knows why...). Massie went off after awhile to watch a movie with her own bunch of friends while me and WL went to the J8 DBS branch to find out what was wrong with my card. At the branch, we were told to go to the POSB branch at Bishan Blk 508 to verify our problem and hopefully, get a replacement card.
So I took WL along stupidly on a bus to the POSB ATM's behind my old school only to find out there were only machines there. Man, I was embaressed. After that, we went back to the J8 area and found that POSB. I took a ticket for the ATM card application queue and got the number 70. I thought, ok it's gonna be fast cos the number at that time was 68. But I was wrong. In the end, we waited for about half an hour before it was my turn. I caught up with WL during our long wait cos it was like half a year ago that I last met him. Quite nice talkin to him actually. We really have alot in common...
Eons later, and now when the sun rises from the west and pigs rule the world, it was my turn. Ok, I'm exaggerating. Anyway, I got the new blue ATM card as a replacement and WL suggested that we go for lunch. I said ok so we went to Ajisen. We got 2 different meals and shared. My junior, who was there, thought we were a couple! (-_-") . . . But WL's really nice la so I won't mind us being a couple actually haha...
During lunch, we met one of the most eccentric persons I'd have ever met in my life who happened to be WL's friend, called Yew Seng. Without proper introduction and invitation, he just sat down at our table and destroyed my date with WL. WL looked pretty disturbed by him cos he had been avoiding the wierdo (he told me about him on our whole journey looking for the right POSB place. Talk about meeting the person you dread meeting the most.) After we left Ajisen, that wierdo tagged along throughout our whole trip at J8. What a parasite.
I left J8 at 5.30 and hugged WL goodbye before I went home to change. Then at around 7 I went to the Jumbo restaurant at the Serengoon Garden Country Club for Auntie Grace's belated birthday dinner. Had lots of fun. There was plenty of food (I'm gonna gain a kilo again. Aargh.), karaoke (sponsored by the lovely me) and joy. We all left at 11.
Quote of the Day: Love is not possession.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
The Day I Returned From The 3 Day Camp
Sentosa's fun. The camp's not. Not that fun anyways. Anyway, we stayed over at Rasa Sentosa (beside the Siloso Beach). Shall give a short recap of what happened each day:
Day 1, Monday, 27th December, 2004
Met at church at 1, reached the hotel at 2, waited for check in so the whole lot of us went to play captain's ball by the beach. Not many hot chicks or hot guys around at that time. Checked in at about 3 plus and I shared a room together with Timmy (no, we didn't do anything of that sort. There were 2 beds la. Haha...). After that, we changed into our swim-wear and we went to the beach. The kids made sand-castles, the older guys went for beach soccer, and I went solo and swam to one of the opposite islands. Bumped into a hot chick on the way hehe but didn't get her number. Sigh... So I got my tan, pickled my d**k (almost, thanks to the salt water) and went back towards the group. Only when I reached back there then I realised the guys were dead worried about me and were frantically searching around for me cos they thought I'd drowned. I was like, "Oh puh-leese la. Me? Drown?!" Ok, it was bloody embarassing. But I apologised 'kay...
Isaac's parents sent dinner over, boxed rice with 2 servings of vegetables and 1 serving of meat. Some of the kids nearly died cos they were apparently carnivores only but I won't go there. Went for the last show at the musical fountain after dinner. The show was ok, with the exception of the stupid-like-hell emcee, the storyline, the irritating songs. Ok, the effects were the only cool things. And the fire. Fire at a fountain, can you believe it? Haha... Took the monorail back to the hotel, went back to our rooms and I slept even before light's out. I was going schitzo already so I needed moi beauty sleep.
Day 2, Tuesday, 28th December, 2004
The wake-up call was supposed to be at 6, but it came at 7. But I woke up at 6 anyways. Luckily Tim didn't snore or I'd have killed myself. Anyway, we had prata for breakfast and after breakfast, there were some games at the lobby because it was drizzling and we seniors didn't want the kids to fall sick. After the rain subsided, we played a mix of touch rugby and dog&bone at the beach. Didn't swim at the beach cos it was high-tide. So we went to swim at the pool instead. Played around in the water and taught Timmy and Chris how to do the Butterfly, but they still can't get it. Chris is to muscular and Chris has too little muscle-power.
Quite ironic.
Well it took me a month last time to get the stroke right, so I can't expect them to get it so quickly right? Haha... So we went for dinner at the ferry terminal food court cos Jardine's mum brought food and played night games at the old ferry arrival/departure area. There, Shawn, Selig and I found 2 kittens (which we nick-named Mary-Kate and Ashley cos they were females) and we brought the two kits back to my room after the games. Fed them some water and cookies and Timmy kept them in the cupboard with some newspapers. Then he watched The Bourne Identity on HBO while I went to sleep.
Today
Woke up at 7 today. Wake up call was at 7.30. Breakfast was peanut butter and bread. After breakfast, the few of us went for a swim at the pool again cos the tide was even higher than the day before. Then I left halfway to play with Mary-Kate and Ashley at the beach. Mary-Kate was more playful and aggressive than Ashley, so if we were to leave them both in the wild, I think only Mary-Kate would survive.
We checked out at 12 and went back to church. I left church at around 1.30 and took the free shuttle to Orchard. Bought Astonishing X-Men 7 and EXiles 56, 57 at Alarics in Cineleisure, then went to Burger King for luch. Saw Johnny there with 2 of his friends and said hi. After lunch, I took a train to Toa Payoh and transferred to bus 73 and got home. Nothing much happened tonight so I shall end my entry here.
Quote of the Day: Don't say "I Love You" if you don't mean it.
Day 1, Monday, 27th December, 2004
Met at church at 1, reached the hotel at 2, waited for check in so the whole lot of us went to play captain's ball by the beach. Not many hot chicks or hot guys around at that time. Checked in at about 3 plus and I shared a room together with Timmy (no, we didn't do anything of that sort. There were 2 beds la. Haha...). After that, we changed into our swim-wear and we went to the beach. The kids made sand-castles, the older guys went for beach soccer, and I went solo and swam to one of the opposite islands. Bumped into a hot chick on the way hehe but didn't get her number. Sigh... So I got my tan, pickled my d**k (almost, thanks to the salt water) and went back towards the group. Only when I reached back there then I realised the guys were dead worried about me and were frantically searching around for me cos they thought I'd drowned. I was like, "Oh puh-leese la. Me? Drown?!" Ok, it was bloody embarassing. But I apologised 'kay...
Isaac's parents sent dinner over, boxed rice with 2 servings of vegetables and 1 serving of meat. Some of the kids nearly died cos they were apparently carnivores only but I won't go there. Went for the last show at the musical fountain after dinner. The show was ok, with the exception of the stupid-like-hell emcee, the storyline, the irritating songs. Ok, the effects were the only cool things. And the fire. Fire at a fountain, can you believe it? Haha... Took the monorail back to the hotel, went back to our rooms and I slept even before light's out. I was going schitzo already so I needed moi beauty sleep.
Day 2, Tuesday, 28th December, 2004
The wake-up call was supposed to be at 6, but it came at 7. But I woke up at 6 anyways. Luckily Tim didn't snore or I'd have killed myself. Anyway, we had prata for breakfast and after breakfast, there were some games at the lobby because it was drizzling and we seniors didn't want the kids to fall sick. After the rain subsided, we played a mix of touch rugby and dog&bone at the beach. Didn't swim at the beach cos it was high-tide. So we went to swim at the pool instead. Played around in the water and taught Timmy and Chris how to do the Butterfly, but they still can't get it. Chris is to muscular and Chris has too little muscle-power.
Quite ironic.
Well it took me a month last time to get the stroke right, so I can't expect them to get it so quickly right? Haha... So we went for dinner at the ferry terminal food court cos Jardine's mum brought food and played night games at the old ferry arrival/departure area. There, Shawn, Selig and I found 2 kittens (which we nick-named Mary-Kate and Ashley cos they were females) and we brought the two kits back to my room after the games. Fed them some water and cookies and Timmy kept them in the cupboard with some newspapers. Then he watched The Bourne Identity on HBO while I went to sleep.
Today
Woke up at 7 today. Wake up call was at 7.30. Breakfast was peanut butter and bread. After breakfast, the few of us went for a swim at the pool again cos the tide was even higher than the day before. Then I left halfway to play with Mary-Kate and Ashley at the beach. Mary-Kate was more playful and aggressive than Ashley, so if we were to leave them both in the wild, I think only Mary-Kate would survive.
We checked out at 12 and went back to church. I left church at around 1.30 and took the free shuttle to Orchard. Bought Astonishing X-Men 7 and EXiles 56, 57 at Alarics in Cineleisure, then went to Burger King for luch. Saw Johnny there with 2 of his friends and said hi. After lunch, I took a train to Toa Payoh and transferred to bus 73 and got home. Nothing much happened tonight so I shall end my entry here.
Quote of the Day: Don't say "I Love You" if you don't mean it.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
The Day I Went To Sentosa
Boxing Day. Ahhh... What a wonderful day. Right.
Woke up at 7.30 and went for church. Then after church, met up with Johnny at Harbourfront MRT station at 12. From there, we proceeded to Sentosa by crossing the long bridge. Halfway through, some Sentosa personnel stopped us and had us go take a bus across because the pedestrian lane was closed up for some building thingy.
So we got on the very crowded bus, reached the island, paid $3 each for entrance fee and took another bus ride to Siloso Beach. Then, we found out that there was no cheap food, so we took a monorail to the ferry terminal for lunch at Burger King. I had a BBQ Turjey Bacon Double meal while he had the Rendang Burger meal. Eat until damn full haha... Then we went back to Siloso beach on foot, through the track.
I changed and went swimming while he read and sun-tanned at the same time. At the beach, I saw really beautiful people, both guys and girls. There was this trio of bodybuilders (I think they were anywyas, judging by their buff bods) and a hot chick who was with them suntanning by the part of the beach I swam in. The guys were practically nude except for their frontal parts as they sun-tanned their asses. A bit overly explicit. then they flexed and did some wierd movement, like some sort of screwed up mating dance. Sorta.
Anywyas, I ended up quite red (Johnny as well). Took a monorail back to the visitors centre (bloody long queue man!) and queued again for the bus back. Overall the trip was quite fun. At least I got to catch up with my buddy a little bit. And my eyes got diabetes (too much eye-candy la you see). Haha...
Had dinner at Grandma's place the got home. Quite frustrated over the first-3-months stuff but what to do? Hope it works out. Sigh... Damn tired today. Tomorrow still going to Sentosa for a 3-day church camp. Whoopee!
Quote of the Day: Don't wait for people to make you happy; Bring happiness to people instead.
Woke up at 7.30 and went for church. Then after church, met up with Johnny at Harbourfront MRT station at 12. From there, we proceeded to Sentosa by crossing the long bridge. Halfway through, some Sentosa personnel stopped us and had us go take a bus across because the pedestrian lane was closed up for some building thingy.
So we got on the very crowded bus, reached the island, paid $3 each for entrance fee and took another bus ride to Siloso Beach. Then, we found out that there was no cheap food, so we took a monorail to the ferry terminal for lunch at Burger King. I had a BBQ Turjey Bacon Double meal while he had the Rendang Burger meal. Eat until damn full haha... Then we went back to Siloso beach on foot, through the track.
I changed and went swimming while he read and sun-tanned at the same time. At the beach, I saw really beautiful people, both guys and girls. There was this trio of bodybuilders (I think they were anywyas, judging by their buff bods) and a hot chick who was with them suntanning by the part of the beach I swam in. The guys were practically nude except for their frontal parts as they sun-tanned their asses. A bit overly explicit. then they flexed and did some wierd movement, like some sort of screwed up mating dance. Sorta.
Anywyas, I ended up quite red (Johnny as well). Took a monorail back to the visitors centre (bloody long queue man!) and queued again for the bus back. Overall the trip was quite fun. At least I got to catch up with my buddy a little bit. And my eyes got diabetes (too much eye-candy la you see). Haha...
Had dinner at Grandma's place the got home. Quite frustrated over the first-3-months stuff but what to do? Hope it works out. Sigh... Damn tired today. Tomorrow still going to Sentosa for a 3-day church camp. Whoopee!
Quote of the Day: Don't wait for people to make you happy; Bring happiness to people instead.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
The Day We Celebrated Christmas
Christmas Day.
Finally. The time of the year has come and gone. How quickly a day passes right? You wait so long for it and before you know it, it's already Boxing Day. Served the 9.15 mass this morning with Jerome, Timmy, Zach, Zach Lin and Desmond Lin. Quite fun. At least we didn't cock up haha... Well, then after mass, went to McDonald's with my parents, Jerome's parents, Claudia and an auntie from church. But no Jerome, cos he went to serve the 10.30 mass. Got stuffed with an extra set of Hotcakes after I finished my Big Breakfast cos mum bought extra. Urgh.
We went to Aunt Veronica's place for a Christmas party. Food again, but I didn't eat. Jerome and family also went so we were like talkin all the way until the party ended. Sigh... I have a sad, lonely life man, compared to him. Never mind... So we got home and I played The Sims 2 again. It's a damn cool game man! Watched a little bit of the Golden Horse Awards on Channel 8 and I'm so so so happy Tony Yang won the Best Newcomer Award (together with that fat girl that I dunno). He really played the part of a love-seeking gay guy in Formula 17 really well. Have I told you how nice that show really is? Haha...
Had family dinner at a really classy Teochew restaurant in Chinatown with my mum's side's relatives. Fujiet got me "The Book Of Insults" for Christmas. Very good for reference. Hee... After dinner, we went for KTV at the CC near my house. Damn cheap lor; $30 for 2 hours per room. K-Box is like $26+++ per head for 3 hours tonight. Rip-off...
Just got home. Gotta sleep early tonight cos tomorrow's gotta be a really fun day. Going to Sentosa with Johnny at noon. So if anybody wants to tag along, feel free to message me yeah. *Yawn*
Quote of the Day: There are no stupid people; The only stupid ones are the lazy ones.
Finally. The time of the year has come and gone. How quickly a day passes right? You wait so long for it and before you know it, it's already Boxing Day. Served the 9.15 mass this morning with Jerome, Timmy, Zach, Zach Lin and Desmond Lin. Quite fun. At least we didn't cock up haha... Well, then after mass, went to McDonald's with my parents, Jerome's parents, Claudia and an auntie from church. But no Jerome, cos he went to serve the 10.30 mass. Got stuffed with an extra set of Hotcakes after I finished my Big Breakfast cos mum bought extra. Urgh.
We went to Aunt Veronica's place for a Christmas party. Food again, but I didn't eat. Jerome and family also went so we were like talkin all the way until the party ended. Sigh... I have a sad, lonely life man, compared to him. Never mind... So we got home and I played The Sims 2 again. It's a damn cool game man! Watched a little bit of the Golden Horse Awards on Channel 8 and I'm so so so happy Tony Yang won the Best Newcomer Award (together with that fat girl that I dunno). He really played the part of a love-seeking gay guy in Formula 17 really well. Have I told you how nice that show really is? Haha...
Had family dinner at a really classy Teochew restaurant in Chinatown with my mum's side's relatives. Fujiet got me "The Book Of Insults" for Christmas. Very good for reference. Hee... After dinner, we went for KTV at the CC near my house. Damn cheap lor; $30 for 2 hours per room. K-Box is like $26+++ per head for 3 hours tonight. Rip-off...
Just got home. Gotta sleep early tonight cos tomorrow's gotta be a really fun day. Going to Sentosa with Johnny at noon. So if anybody wants to tag along, feel free to message me yeah. *Yawn*
Quote of the Day: There are no stupid people; The only stupid ones are the lazy ones.
Friday, December 24, 2004
The Day I Finally Thought It Through
It's Christmas Eve. Wasted my whole morning at the office doing nothing. Then at about 3 went to Hilton with Aunt Step and waited for my parents and the Bong sisters (YY and Fiona). Had High Tea at the coffee house until about 5 plus, then brought Dad to Borders to get Claudia's Christmas present, some female romance novel. Saw Devane but didn't say hi. Then as we left Borders, we saw Leslie Kwok. Man, the guy is like totally beefy! Picked mum up at the office and went home.
Went to church to serve the 9.30 Christmas mass. Had a Pot-Luck dinner before that. Justice actually shaved his head today! Quite cute actually. Never mind. So after mass (and much embaressment due to some of my little glitches. Shan't go into that.), mum and dad sent the Christmas present to Aunt Step (a Nokia 7260. Not very nice...) at her home in Sengkang then we went for supper at Chomp-Chomp. Fried Prawn Mee, Carrot Cake and Ice Jelly Cocktail. Mmmm... Then reached home. And now it's already Christmas Day. So MERRY CHRISTMAS everybody!
To Kaworu (if you're reading this at all):
I thought about it the whole of last night and I feel that I have been very selfish all the while so I have to say a very big "Sorry" to you. I've only thought about my own feelings and not yours. It was all about me trying to get you but I never empathised with you. It is my fault. But I guess it's true, what they say about "If you love something, you gotta set it free". I'm happy to say that the times I've spent with you were the best of my life (so far), cos being with me gives me "the feeling" that I cannot put down in words. I'm setting you free from my heart. Thank you for the fond memories. Thank you so, so much. All the best and I certainly hope to see you soon.
Quote of the Day: Sometimes, it's OK to let fate decide.
Went to church to serve the 9.30 Christmas mass. Had a Pot-Luck dinner before that. Justice actually shaved his head today! Quite cute actually. Never mind. So after mass (and much embaressment due to some of my little glitches. Shan't go into that.), mum and dad sent the Christmas present to Aunt Step (a Nokia 7260. Not very nice...) at her home in Sengkang then we went for supper at Chomp-Chomp. Fried Prawn Mee, Carrot Cake and Ice Jelly Cocktail. Mmmm... Then reached home. And now it's already Christmas Day. So MERRY CHRISTMAS everybody!
To Kaworu (if you're reading this at all):
I thought about it the whole of last night and I feel that I have been very selfish all the while so I have to say a very big "Sorry" to you. I've only thought about my own feelings and not yours. It was all about me trying to get you but I never empathised with you. It is my fault. But I guess it's true, what they say about "If you love something, you gotta set it free". I'm happy to say that the times I've spent with you were the best of my life (so far), cos being with me gives me "the feeling" that I cannot put down in words. I'm setting you free from my heart. Thank you for the fond memories. Thank you so, so much. All the best and I certainly hope to see you soon.
Quote of the Day: Sometimes, it's OK to let fate decide.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
The Day I Type Two Day's Worth Of Entries
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Woke up at 8 and went to film my testimonial for my math tutor's commercial. Then went out to Wisma Atria to meet up with Wan Jin, Denise, Iggy, Marcus and Yong Wen. Apparently our dear little Iggy has a little crush (or is it a huge one) on Denise. But I shan't comment. Anyways, we went to Taka for lunch. Bought Iggy and myself a Tori-Q set each while Wan Jin shared hers with Denise. Marcus didn't eat and Yong Wen had Thai Fried Rice. Then we walked to Far East Plaza and I showed them the tarnsvestite who works at one of the shops cos they didn't believe me. Now they do.
Then we had the Turkish ice-cream at the carnival place on the open field beside Orchard MRT. That Turk joker practically ridiculed us in public! But well, it was fun. Then we went to Borders and found out that everything was on 15% discount. And I saw Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway album (I've been waiting for almost a month for it!) and I got it! Whee! Well, we hogged the music players and certainly got on the nerves of the Borders CD section personnel but who cares right? Haha. After that, Denise, Marcus and Iggy had to leave so it was left with me, Wan Jin and Yong Wen.
The 3 of us went to Toys R Us to relive our childhood (somehow) and bumped into Nick and Samuel. Then we had a drink at McDonald's then I went to mum's office and the both of us took the free shuttle to church to get the car. Had a Christmas dinner at the place of a church auntie. Very nice food man...
Stayed over at Jerome's place and we played GTA all the way until like 3 plus. Quite tired then we went to sleep.
Today
Woke up at 8.30 cos there was supposed to be practise at church at 9.30. Then Jerome took his own sweet time and we left his place at 9.15. Took 53 to Bishan MRT and transferred on a train to Orchard. Then we switched to bus 65 and reached church at 10.30. 1 hour late. What the hell...
Ended up doing the decorations together with Timmy, Leo and Isaac. I think Isaac has a crush on me. Whatever. Anyways, left church at about 12.30 after we were done with the decorations and had lunch with Aunt Step at the Orchard KFC . Damn full lor. We had the buddy meal (which was mostly finished by me) plus cheese fries and an extra drumstick for me. Then went back to the office to finish some last bit of filing. Went to sleep on the sofa until 6 then came home. Had dinner with my parents and installed The Sims 2 (my Aunt gave it to me for Christmas).
I love Kelly's Because Of You. Damn meaningful. Here's the lyrics:
Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learnt the hard way to never let it get that far
(Chorus)
Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid
I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry because I know it's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with
(Chorus)
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I'm afraid
Because of you.
Quote of the Day: Lies will come into light eventually.
Woke up at 8 and went to film my testimonial for my math tutor's commercial. Then went out to Wisma Atria to meet up with Wan Jin, Denise, Iggy, Marcus and Yong Wen. Apparently our dear little Iggy has a little crush (or is it a huge one) on Denise. But I shan't comment. Anyways, we went to Taka for lunch. Bought Iggy and myself a Tori-Q set each while Wan Jin shared hers with Denise. Marcus didn't eat and Yong Wen had Thai Fried Rice. Then we walked to Far East Plaza and I showed them the tarnsvestite who works at one of the shops cos they didn't believe me. Now they do.
Then we had the Turkish ice-cream at the carnival place on the open field beside Orchard MRT. That Turk joker practically ridiculed us in public! But well, it was fun. Then we went to Borders and found out that everything was on 15% discount. And I saw Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway album (I've been waiting for almost a month for it!) and I got it! Whee! Well, we hogged the music players and certainly got on the nerves of the Borders CD section personnel but who cares right? Haha. After that, Denise, Marcus and Iggy had to leave so it was left with me, Wan Jin and Yong Wen.
The 3 of us went to Toys R Us to relive our childhood (somehow) and bumped into Nick and Samuel. Then we had a drink at McDonald's then I went to mum's office and the both of us took the free shuttle to church to get the car. Had a Christmas dinner at the place of a church auntie. Very nice food man...
Stayed over at Jerome's place and we played GTA all the way until like 3 plus. Quite tired then we went to sleep.
Today
Woke up at 8.30 cos there was supposed to be practise at church at 9.30. Then Jerome took his own sweet time and we left his place at 9.15. Took 53 to Bishan MRT and transferred on a train to Orchard. Then we switched to bus 65 and reached church at 10.30. 1 hour late. What the hell...
Ended up doing the decorations together with Timmy, Leo and Isaac. I think Isaac has a crush on me. Whatever. Anyways, left church at about 12.30 after we were done with the decorations and had lunch with Aunt Step at the Orchard KFC . Damn full lor. We had the buddy meal (which was mostly finished by me) plus cheese fries and an extra drumstick for me. Then went back to the office to finish some last bit of filing. Went to sleep on the sofa until 6 then came home. Had dinner with my parents and installed The Sims 2 (my Aunt gave it to me for Christmas).
I love Kelly's Because Of You. Damn meaningful. Here's the lyrics:
Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learnt the hard way to never let it get that far
(Chorus)
Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid
I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry because I know it's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with
(Chorus)
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I'm afraid
Because of you.
Quote of the Day: Lies will come into light eventually.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
The Day I Didn't Do Much
I woke up at around 9 then had breakfast with mum. Then after mum left for work, I watched Formula 17. Cried again after watching the last part of the show. Such a happy ending... After that, I went online and continued to download Charmed.
Went to YB's house at bout 2.30 and watched The Terminal on DVD. The show was also very romantic. Tom Hanks delivered a really wonderful performance. Then watched the Jay-Z and Linkin' Park Encore DVD. Nothing very interesting there. Watched that while I wrapped Chistmas presents. Got home at around 7 then watched Double Happiness.
Probably gonna play GTA later and kill more people. Haha...
Quote of the Day: I'm not perfect.
Went to YB's house at bout 2.30 and watched The Terminal on DVD. The show was also very romantic. Tom Hanks delivered a really wonderful performance. Then watched the Jay-Z and Linkin' Park Encore DVD. Nothing very interesting there. Watched that while I wrapped Chistmas presents. Got home at around 7 then watched Double Happiness.
Probably gonna play GTA later and kill more people. Haha...
Quote of the Day: I'm not perfect.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
The Day I Went Out The Whole Day When Mum Was Sick
Sunday, December 19 2004
Went to church early in the morning and had Christmas practise until about 3. Got down to Bugis to meet YB and Debbo. Then we went to Absolute Comics to get some comics (he got his back issues of Ultimate Spiderman cos he had just gotten back from China and I got my New X-Men: Academy X and Uncanny X-Men ). Then we went down to the Heerens' HMV.
We spent about an hour there where YB got his Drumline DVD, Maksim's Variations CD for his mum and a very expensive Lord Of The Rings: Return of the King Special Extended Edition DVD (priced at S$79.95) for his friend's Christmas present. After that, we walked around Heerens and saw Mambo on SALE. Yeah right. Their stuff, even after discount, is still very pricey.
Anyways, we left the Heerens and decided to go to Scott's Picnic Foodcourt for dinner. Debbo had beef noodles, YB had dumpling noodles and I had ban mian. After dinner, we squeezed through the big crowd at Orchard because some New Creation Church had a very big activity in the middle of the road and alot of people were gathered along the whole stretch of road. Took a taxi home and said bye bye to Debbo and YB. Then Jerome and Claudia came over and we played PS2. I let them try Kingdom Hearts and GTA: San Andreas.
At about 12, Claudia went home and Jerome decided to stay over. So we continued our massacre in San Andreas till 3, when I couldn't take it anymore and fell asleep.
Quote of the Day: Anyone who touches you can hurt you or heal you
Went to church early in the morning and had Christmas practise until about 3. Got down to Bugis to meet YB and Debbo. Then we went to Absolute Comics to get some comics (he got his back issues of Ultimate Spiderman cos he had just gotten back from China and I got my New X-Men: Academy X and Uncanny X-Men ). Then we went down to the Heerens' HMV.
We spent about an hour there where YB got his Drumline DVD, Maksim's Variations CD for his mum and a very expensive Lord Of The Rings: Return of the King Special Extended Edition DVD (priced at S$79.95) for his friend's Christmas present. After that, we walked around Heerens and saw Mambo on SALE. Yeah right. Their stuff, even after discount, is still very pricey.
Anyways, we left the Heerens and decided to go to Scott's Picnic Foodcourt for dinner. Debbo had beef noodles, YB had dumpling noodles and I had ban mian. After dinner, we squeezed through the big crowd at Orchard because some New Creation Church had a very big activity in the middle of the road and alot of people were gathered along the whole stretch of road. Took a taxi home and said bye bye to Debbo and YB. Then Jerome and Claudia came over and we played PS2. I let them try Kingdom Hearts and GTA: San Andreas.
At about 12, Claudia went home and Jerome decided to stay over. So we continued our massacre in San Andreas till 3, when I couldn't take it anymore and fell asleep.
Quote of the Day: Anyone who touches you can hurt you or heal you
Saturday, December 18, 2004
The Day I Went Carolling
Woke up at 9 plus today, then went out for breakfast with Dad at the Serangoon Gardens food centre. After that, I played The Urbz (upped my Rep to about 60) and started on GTA: San Andreas (It's so cool! Newly added expletives!). Left for the huisuo at about 12.30.
Finally saw Desiree, Elisa, Yvonne, Cam, Ber, Gareth, Alvan, Iggy, Adeline, Jiahui, Jenny, YongWen, Marcus, PingPing, Pixiang, Amos, Fernie, Christina, Michelle, Lester, Doreen, Donovan after so long!
So, we rehearsed some of the very very boring Christmas songs, meaning the ones we do every year eg. Jingle Bells, Rudolf, I Saw Mummy Kissing Santa Clause. I mean, what were they thinking? No The Christmas Song, This Christmas? Anyway, then we went to the Salvation Army's old folks' place at Changi followed by the Lapris Home (for the lepars). We then went to Donovan's house and I left immediately after the carolling group to go to my cousin's birthday BBQ at the NTUC Pasir Ris chalet.
Nothing much happened over there. I played Halo 2 with my cousin and then went to the airport to pick up my mum.
Still missing J.
Quote of the Day: Control your urges; Don't be controlled by it.
Finally saw Desiree, Elisa, Yvonne, Cam, Ber, Gareth, Alvan, Iggy, Adeline, Jiahui, Jenny, YongWen, Marcus, PingPing, Pixiang, Amos, Fernie, Christina, Michelle, Lester, Doreen, Donovan after so long!
So, we rehearsed some of the very very boring Christmas songs, meaning the ones we do every year eg. Jingle Bells, Rudolf, I Saw Mummy Kissing Santa Clause. I mean, what were they thinking? No The Christmas Song, This Christmas? Anyway, then we went to the Salvation Army's old folks' place at Changi followed by the Lapris Home (for the lepars). We then went to Donovan's house and I left immediately after the carolling group to go to my cousin's birthday BBQ at the NTUC Pasir Ris chalet.
Nothing much happened over there. I played Halo 2 with my cousin and then went to the airport to pick up my mum.
Still missing J.
Quote of the Day: Control your urges; Don't be controlled by it.
Friday, December 17, 2004
The Day I Met Alot Of Familiar People
Aaah... What a day. I finally get to go out and had a little bit of fun!
A recap of my day:
Slept till 7 plus and did the usual. Went to work (typing, filing and added printing to my list of work today) and left at 6. Went to Takashimaya to return my dad's borrowed cd's and on my way through Wisma Atria, I bumped into Timmy. He followed me to the book/cd drop. Then I followed him to look for this brand called Roxy because he'd wanted to buy a wallet for this girl (I dunno who) and it had to be from that brand. So, we walked around Taka, then went to Heerens. We saw the Singapore Idol Top 30 finalist Dwayne performing with a guitarist on the Heerens centre stage. His CD's coming out next week. Finally after much walking, we found the place where they sold the wallet. So he paid the $32 for the black furry thing and we went off searching for our next meal. Ok, maybe searching's not the word. It was more like figuring out where we go for dinner.
So, we went to Paragon and to our dismay, found yet another Roxy shop selling the wallet with the similar designs but with a wider selection of colours. Curses. After that, we went to window shop at Versace and saw Joanne Peh outside the shop. She was so friendly! Anyway, we decided unanimously to go to Taka for dinner. At the basement food-court, we met Joel (who was buying the wierd Japanese fried noodles for his dinner) and he followed us to Macs where I bought a Grilled Chicken Foldover set (for me) and McChicken set (for Tim). Before we sat down and had our dinner at the stairs, someone called out my name and I saw that it was Joshua (and Juliano)! Then they waved and walked on. After a dinner (and some talking), Tim bought some Gelato for dessert (Dark Chocolate and Strawberry). Mmmm... Delicious.
We went back to HMV after dinner and saw some nice CD's. Fantasia's debut album is $1 cheaper than Diana's (Fantasia $17.95, Diana $18.95). Wonder what that means. I found out that Joel likes old rock and the new rock music like Red Hot Chilli Peppers. Now I know what I could get him for Christmas. Meanwhile, Timmy kept himting that he'd love either Britney Spears' (aka The Ex-Self-Professed-Virgin) My Prerogative or Kylie Minogue's Greatest Hits for Christmas. After about half-an-hour there, Joel left and I went to Timmy's house for awhile before Dad picked me up.
Quote of the Day: Be positive and you'll stay happy.
A recap of my day:
Slept till 7 plus and did the usual. Went to work (typing, filing and added printing to my list of work today) and left at 6. Went to Takashimaya to return my dad's borrowed cd's and on my way through Wisma Atria, I bumped into Timmy. He followed me to the book/cd drop. Then I followed him to look for this brand called Roxy because he'd wanted to buy a wallet for this girl (I dunno who) and it had to be from that brand. So, we walked around Taka, then went to Heerens. We saw the Singapore Idol Top 30 finalist Dwayne performing with a guitarist on the Heerens centre stage. His CD's coming out next week. Finally after much walking, we found the place where they sold the wallet. So he paid the $32 for the black furry thing and we went off searching for our next meal. Ok, maybe searching's not the word. It was more like figuring out where we go for dinner.
So, we went to Paragon and to our dismay, found yet another Roxy shop selling the wallet with the similar designs but with a wider selection of colours. Curses. After that, we went to window shop at Versace and saw Joanne Peh outside the shop. She was so friendly! Anyway, we decided unanimously to go to Taka for dinner. At the basement food-court, we met Joel (who was buying the wierd Japanese fried noodles for his dinner) and he followed us to Macs where I bought a Grilled Chicken Foldover set (for me) and McChicken set (for Tim). Before we sat down and had our dinner at the stairs, someone called out my name and I saw that it was Joshua (and Juliano)! Then they waved and walked on. After a dinner (and some talking), Tim bought some Gelato for dessert (Dark Chocolate and Strawberry). Mmmm... Delicious.
We went back to HMV after dinner and saw some nice CD's. Fantasia's debut album is $1 cheaper than Diana's (Fantasia $17.95, Diana $18.95). Wonder what that means. I found out that Joel likes old rock and the new rock music like Red Hot Chilli Peppers. Now I know what I could get him for Christmas. Meanwhile, Timmy kept himting that he'd love either Britney Spears' (aka The Ex-Self-Professed-Virgin) My Prerogative or Kylie Minogue's Greatest Hits for Christmas. After about half-an-hour there, Joel left and I went to Timmy's house for awhile before Dad picked me up.
Quote of the Day: Be positive and you'll stay happy.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
The Day I Got So Tired
Woke up at bout 7.30 today and did the usual stuff (you know, brush my teeth, drink water...) and turned on the com. I was beginning to dread work, to be honest. I mean, it's like all the boring stuff like paper work, filing and typing. Urk.
Nothing interesting happened at work today so shan't talk about it here. Just that I got so tired from getting the Christmas cards ready, filing (again!!!) and typing. So I vow to myself that I will never ever do office work again in the future after working for my mum.
Went for Christmas mass practise again today. Nothing interesting about that either, just that the other guys seemed particularly interested in my Tamagochi, God knows why. Anyway, I went for supper with Jerome (my best friend), his younger sis Claudia and his mum after that at Great World. We talked for awhile and I found out that his mum had allowed him to get pierced. Man! She's a cool mum! Why can't my mum be like that? She took off my studs after I got pierced in China.
Well, at least I had them on for a week. But still... Never mind. Ok, I'm going back to watching my Mean Girls. Aaah... Lindsay rocks!
Quote of the Day: You are beautiful no matter what they say.
Nothing interesting happened at work today so shan't talk about it here. Just that I got so tired from getting the Christmas cards ready, filing (again!!!) and typing. So I vow to myself that I will never ever do office work again in the future after working for my mum.
Went for Christmas mass practise again today. Nothing interesting about that either, just that the other guys seemed particularly interested in my Tamagochi, God knows why. Anyway, I went for supper with Jerome (my best friend), his younger sis Claudia and his mum after that at Great World. We talked for awhile and I found out that his mum had allowed him to get pierced. Man! She's a cool mum! Why can't my mum be like that? She took off my studs after I got pierced in China.
Well, at least I had them on for a week. But still... Never mind. Ok, I'm going back to watching my Mean Girls. Aaah... Lindsay rocks!
Quote of the Day: You are beautiful no matter what they say.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
The Day I Get Pissed Off
Fuck the people who hate me. None of you who hate me have any fuckin' RIGHT to spread stuff about me. You people don't know me, so NONE of you have ANY right to judge ME. So WHAT if I am not the kinda macho guy most guys are? SO WHAT? Must I fuckin' bear with your insults, stares, GOSSIP? Year after year? FUCK YOU! Have you people ever thought of how I feel?!!!!!
Call me self-centred now, will ya? Call me names now, huh? Well, so what if I'm being self-centred now? I am BLOODY SICK of your lies, your bullshit, your MUTHAFUCKIN' EGOS! So what if I did win at the award? So what? I won it fairly? You think it's nice to hear peolple bad-mouthing you when you work so hard to win something? Well, I don't think you know how that feels, now do you? THAT'S cos you ugly, petty, foul and revolting bastards haven't experienced it before! So the next time you feel like criticising somebody, why don't you put yourselves in their shoes for a change, huh?
I give up so much for the good of the school, I try my best to live up to my expectations. You think it's easy? DO YOU? Yes, I do get reprimanded by teachers sometimes but at least they appreciate what I'm doing. Ok, so I'm the bad guy in school, that's why I don't blame you people from hating me. But the lies that I read and hear about my personal life, which includes my family, I cannot take lying down. Attack me verbally, write hate stuff on your blogs about me, spread tales about me, even physically challenge me, I don't really care. I mean, for 4 FUCKED UP years I've lived with that, so I'm more or less numb to it. But NEVER EVER INSULT MY FAMILY! They have NEVER, EVER done anything to you sonofabitches so DON'T you people DARE to talk about them!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Phew. I feel much better now. Sorry bout that. I just wanted to channel my anger towards my "hate club". Just got a little ticked off. Man. It's good to vent out frustrations. I don't expect them to even read this but I feel really good after I've let it all out. Sorry if my words have offended anyone who unfortunately came across this entry.
Quote of the Day: Don't give up on love.
Call me self-centred now, will ya? Call me names now, huh? Well, so what if I'm being self-centred now? I am BLOODY SICK of your lies, your bullshit, your MUTHAFUCKIN' EGOS! So what if I did win at the award? So what? I won it fairly? You think it's nice to hear peolple bad-mouthing you when you work so hard to win something? Well, I don't think you know how that feels, now do you? THAT'S cos you ugly, petty, foul and revolting bastards haven't experienced it before! So the next time you feel like criticising somebody, why don't you put yourselves in their shoes for a change, huh?
I give up so much for the good of the school, I try my best to live up to my expectations. You think it's easy? DO YOU? Yes, I do get reprimanded by teachers sometimes but at least they appreciate what I'm doing. Ok, so I'm the bad guy in school, that's why I don't blame you people from hating me. But the lies that I read and hear about my personal life, which includes my family, I cannot take lying down. Attack me verbally, write hate stuff on your blogs about me, spread tales about me, even physically challenge me, I don't really care. I mean, for 4 FUCKED UP years I've lived with that, so I'm more or less numb to it. But NEVER EVER INSULT MY FAMILY! They have NEVER, EVER done anything to you sonofabitches so DON'T you people DARE to talk about them!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Phew. I feel much better now. Sorry bout that. I just wanted to channel my anger towards my "hate club". Just got a little ticked off. Man. It's good to vent out frustrations. I don't expect them to even read this but I feel really good after I've let it all out. Sorry if my words have offended anyone who unfortunately came across this entry.
Quote of the Day: Don't give up on love.
Monday, December 13, 2004
The Day I Started Work
First day at work. Kinda tired.
Basically, I started work at my mum's office today. Learnt the basics like checking the daily foreign currency exchange rate, fax, photo-copy, print PO slips etc. My day started like at 8, with me lounging in bed like some big ole sloth. Played Naruto 2 for awhile before I changed for work (T-Shirt and Jeans. Cool huh? Haha...).
So I went off to the office at Orchard Towers. Won't go into the details. Had lunch at Scotts Picnic Food Court (Thai Stir-Fried Beef rice set) with my Aunt and my mum. Dad picked me up at 4 plus and sent me to my mum's customers to deliver some goods. Sent a Power SMS to Power 98FM dedicating a song to my old man and when he heard it over the radio, he was so touched! Haha... Love him to death.
Got home at 6 and played Urbz: Sims in the City on my PS2. Got stuck at the beginning stage of The Incredibles so I decided to leave it aside for the time being first. Had dinner after that and yeah, I think that's all for my day. Pretty slow today.
Quote of the Day: Dreams are just dreams when it's stuck inside your head. All it takes is a little help from you.
Basically, I started work at my mum's office today. Learnt the basics like checking the daily foreign currency exchange rate, fax, photo-copy, print PO slips etc. My day started like at 8, with me lounging in bed like some big ole sloth. Played Naruto 2 for awhile before I changed for work (T-Shirt and Jeans. Cool huh? Haha...).
So I went off to the office at Orchard Towers. Won't go into the details. Had lunch at Scotts Picnic Food Court (Thai Stir-Fried Beef rice set) with my Aunt and my mum. Dad picked me up at 4 plus and sent me to my mum's customers to deliver some goods. Sent a Power SMS to Power 98FM dedicating a song to my old man and when he heard it over the radio, he was so touched! Haha... Love him to death.
Got home at 6 and played Urbz: Sims in the City on my PS2. Got stuck at the beginning stage of The Incredibles so I decided to leave it aside for the time being first. Had dinner after that and yeah, I think that's all for my day. Pretty slow today.
Quote of the Day: Dreams are just dreams when it's stuck inside your head. All it takes is a little help from you.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
The Day I Talk ABout The Daily Things I Go Through
Today was a rather good day.
Woke up at 7 (actually, my parents dragged me out of bed at 7) and got to church just a few minutes before 8. Went for mass and met up with my beloved Godpa Sam after that. After hooking up with the hunk, we went to Paradiz Centre (he drove) and I finally saw his bread shop. Well, it's not much of a shop. More like a corner of the Paradiz Centre food court. Anyway, that shop's called PapaRoti. He sorta like sells those kind of coffee buns with butter fillings. Very delicious when hot; A must try. Sam gave me a free bun (duh, no way I'd pay. He's supposed to take care of me. Haha...) and man was it gooood. Then he had to make more buns together with his employees. I took off to Plaza Singapura and bought myself JoJo's album JoJo and The Very Best of Christmas Favourites double disk CD.
At bout 12, he sent me back to church as he also had choir practise at that time. On our way back, I listened to his musical compilation and I found out that he's actually very talented in song-writing. He's also almost finished the song he's writing for me. So touching. Hee...
Went to my Grandpa's place for lunch and I saw my cousin Eva who had just returned from Sydney. It's been 3 years since I last saw her! She's still as beautiful as ever. Heard she went for a job interview for a stewardess position at SIA just yesterday. Wish her luck! 'Nyways, took my half-senile Grandma out (my Grandpa has trouble walking, so he usually doesn't get to go out. Poor thing.) to the Esplanade with my mum and dad. Mum went to shop at Orchard and dad stayed at the Esplanade Library with his mum. I met WJ there together with her cousin there and we went out. Sadly, just as we left the Library, her cousin had to go off so it was like "Bye bye. See ya later".
We walked to Raffles City and window shopped. Saw the Disney thingy going on. Sigh. I miss my childhood days when my parents would bring me to these shows and I'd really enjoy myself. Well, we then went to the toys section and we saw the Jack-Jack life-size doll that I'd so badly wanted. Sadly, it was at a hefty price of $59.90. Not worth it. Will buy it when the price drops.
Her Aunt came to pick us up and dropped us off at her place. Never been there before. Her room's so big and nice and cosy! And she has this really stupid cat called "Meow-Meow". Very, very stupid. I borrowed the Mean Girls DVD and A Shark's Tale DVD from her. Took NEL to my other Granny's place for dinner and watched the Star Awards. Shan't bore with the details.
J finally replied my sms. Hope I'll sleep well tonight. *yawn*
Quote of the Day: Remember that whenever one door closes, another one will open.
Woke up at 7 (actually, my parents dragged me out of bed at 7) and got to church just a few minutes before 8. Went for mass and met up with my beloved Godpa Sam after that. After hooking up with the hunk, we went to Paradiz Centre (he drove) and I finally saw his bread shop. Well, it's not much of a shop. More like a corner of the Paradiz Centre food court. Anyway, that shop's called PapaRoti. He sorta like sells those kind of coffee buns with butter fillings. Very delicious when hot; A must try. Sam gave me a free bun (duh, no way I'd pay. He's supposed to take care of me. Haha...) and man was it gooood. Then he had to make more buns together with his employees. I took off to Plaza Singapura and bought myself JoJo's album JoJo and The Very Best of Christmas Favourites double disk CD.
At bout 12, he sent me back to church as he also had choir practise at that time. On our way back, I listened to his musical compilation and I found out that he's actually very talented in song-writing. He's also almost finished the song he's writing for me. So touching. Hee...
Went to my Grandpa's place for lunch and I saw my cousin Eva who had just returned from Sydney. It's been 3 years since I last saw her! She's still as beautiful as ever. Heard she went for a job interview for a stewardess position at SIA just yesterday. Wish her luck! 'Nyways, took my half-senile Grandma out (my Grandpa has trouble walking, so he usually doesn't get to go out. Poor thing.) to the Esplanade with my mum and dad. Mum went to shop at Orchard and dad stayed at the Esplanade Library with his mum. I met WJ there together with her cousin there and we went out. Sadly, just as we left the Library, her cousin had to go off so it was like "Bye bye. See ya later".
We walked to Raffles City and window shopped. Saw the Disney thingy going on. Sigh. I miss my childhood days when my parents would bring me to these shows and I'd really enjoy myself. Well, we then went to the toys section and we saw the Jack-Jack life-size doll that I'd so badly wanted. Sadly, it was at a hefty price of $59.90. Not worth it. Will buy it when the price drops.
Her Aunt came to pick us up and dropped us off at her place. Never been there before. Her room's so big and nice and cosy! And she has this really stupid cat called "Meow-Meow". Very, very stupid. I borrowed the Mean Girls DVD and A Shark's Tale DVD from her. Took NEL to my other Granny's place for dinner and watched the Star Awards. Shan't bore with the details.
J finally replied my sms. Hope I'll sleep well tonight. *yawn*
Quote of the Day: Remember that whenever one door closes, another one will open.
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